Thanksgiving of course

My family is really awkward, and not the kind where you make small talk while watching the football game, the kind where we just sit there and don’t say anything while watching the football game. This is why I wish I was Hispanic, their families can talk forever. My grandma and I are the only ones who think that my new uncle and his family are annoying and arrogant. My uncle is one of those people who knows everything about whatever the topic of conversation is, magically he will know every detail about brain cancer or what wine to choose for dinner if you are talking about it, it really bothers me, and his parents and siblings are no better, one of the sisters has a small dog that I think is extremely gay and extremely testosterone deprived, and his parents are the ones with the biggest house on the peninsula, beach front, with their house covered in priceless heirlooms from past generations. But there is one sibling I do like; I can’t remember her name though. But she has a Hispanic boyfriend so that made me envious of her, and then she knows what American Apparel and Urb Out are. She’s the only one who complimented me on my skirt and shoes. But all of them are disgustingly wealthy so I guess that compensates for their horrible personalities. This time of year always makes me want to have a boyfriend because I’ve always had one this time of the year, but it looks like this year I’ll be riding solo Tomorrow is Cyber Monday.

This week has not been good for me.

This week had just not been a good one. I haven’t gone to math all week and I feel socially out of touch, like I can’t keep up with anyone. I really want a nice bike but I can’t seem to find one with my budget (200$) I haven’t been getting my way at all money wise and I keep on putting off my goal of getting that badly needed gym membership, I like to procrastinate a lot. On a better note I guess I turned in my ABC book, so that should raise my grade a lot in history, also my grade in English went up like 10 points so I have a C now, so that’s good. What made me think of all of this “not fitting in” business was today in art I explained to Maria what a hipsters were, this took up the entire 3rd period, so I guess I have a pretty good hold on what a hipster is, I don’t know, so that made me think well why can’t I put all of this knowledge about it and make it happen? Then I thought about why I haven’t gone through with this action, I came up with: I’m too shy and not outgoing enough, I have more than 2% body fat and can’t pull off high-waisted pants because they don’t make them in my size, I’m terrified of not being accepted by fellow hipsters. But again I thought of the article on Wiki How “How to Be a Hipster” and it said that “The goal of being a hipster is to look like you're not trying; however, if you are one, you are probably trying really hard.” It made a lot of sense to me. And besides it’s not like I’m just doing this because everyone else seemed to jump on the hipster bandwagon, it’s because I actually like it and I personally think I have enough potential (KEYWORD) to become a successful hipster and plus there is a lot of attractive males in this group. I’m stupid my grandma told me tonight.
Today was better than previous days, I most likely got 100% on my Italian quiz, I did my homework for history in 2nd period, oh which by the way I got my seat moved in by PARENTAL REQUEST, fuck that, so I asked mr.angulo to kindly switch me back and he did. Gianni’s grandma revealed to my grandma that Alexis had gotten my bike stolen, I hated Barbra for a few seconds but then got over it when I DROVE! To target to get some face wash. A few minutes ago I was twerkin to some Ying Yang and got up on my twerkin skills, so that’s good. Tomorrow should be good, its Friday I mean, the only think I’m not looking forward to is math because I haven’t been there in a week and I’m going to be so lost, maybe I’ll do my bathroom routine where at 1:10 I ask to go to the bathroom, and I do, it’s just that I go to the 300 building bathroom, play some “Bob’s Great Adventure” on my phone, walk down the 900 hallway and right along the 800 building, it’s a nice walk and by the time I get back its already 1:35 which leaves me with 5 minutes until class ends. It works out very nicely. But maybe I won’t do that tomorrow because I’ve been gone so long, I don’t know. Also today carina was supposed to come over but she couldn’t because she “had too much homework” wtf. I got mad for that and also got over it within a few minutes. On a side note, when I was typing this, I typed “twerkin” and it obviously said I spelt it wrong because Microsoft Word is not up on black slang term, so for spelling suggestions they offered tweaking. I was obviously tweaking.

If I could draw you a picture of what my goal is right now I would draw me jumping over a fence to a land filled with sugar cubes and hay, leaving behind his owner and a branding stick. Not to be taken litterialy.